Not fishing…

If I was to disappear, would people notice? Would people give a damn? Would they miss me?

I’m not sure.

Disclaimer…

(Disclaimer: Sorry this may be a vent post)

One of my traits ever since is protecting my friends and my family physically or emotionally (especially from gettin hurt). I would rather take the bullet for them than they get hit with it. I would do everything just to keep them happy.

If there is one thing I do not like, it’s spreading rumors and speaking ill against other people especially my close friends.

[Start vent]

Ok lang ang mga tuksuhan, asaran paminsan minsan.  Pero pag ito’y nakakasaket na ng kapwa hindi na ito maganda.  Sa mga taong mahilig dito tantsyahin nyo sana kung nakakasaket na kayo sa kapwa nyo. Kung meron man kayong capacidad mag-isip, isipin nyo na lang ang nararamdaman ng mga taong ginaganyan nyo.   Hindi ko gusto ang pinagpepyestahan ng mga kung ano anong bagay at mga tsismis na wala namang kwenta or kathang-isip lamang. Kung saken gagawin  ok lang sanay nako, pero if it’s with my friends watch out…dahil pag ako ang nagsalita…sisiguraduhin kong 1000 beses o higit pa ang balik sayo neto. Huwag na sanang antayin pa na umabot sa ganun dahil usually hindi ako ganun. But if push comes to shove tignan na lang naten.

Sabi ko nga mabaet ako sa mabaet sa ken pero kung gago ka mas gago ako. Same thing goes kung mabaet ka sa mga kaibigan ko mabaet din ako pero pag ginago mo ang mga kaibigan ko pasensyahan na lang.

Sa mga nagkakalat ng kung ano-ano mga bagay bagay na wala naman kayong kinalaman, please lang itigil nyo na yan. Iba na lang ang gawin nyo sa kapwa nyo..yung makakabuti sa kanila instead of nakakasama. At sa mga taong inggitero / inggitera, di ko alam kung meron ba kayong kinaiinggitan or mga insecure lang kayo just shut your trap and get a life. Now if your life merely consists of speaking ill of others and making fun of them in the wrong way, i pity you. Sana itikom nyo na lang ang mga bibig nyo kung wala naman kayong magandang sasabihin

[End vent]

Yun lang. Gusto ko lang i share ang nararamdaman ko sa mga bagay-bagay.

Some questions…

Have you felt that you are no longer needed?  Have you ever felt that no matter what you do some things would still be the same?
Have you tried to change something but in the end it’s gonna end up like nothing happened?  Have you lost your sense of worth because nobody appreciates what you do even if you try really really hard? Have you put up an effort but not recognized in the end?

I will answer yes to the above questions.  I just try really hard not to think of these things because if I do, I might end up losing my sanity.

I maybe wrong but my instincts seldom fail me.

Some anime quotes

Nothing much I can post. I found an interesting site though about popular anime quotes. I’ll just post some of them here :

 ”On the day we left, we burned down the family home and all the familiar things inside. Because some memories… aren’t meant to leave traces.”

“Shining brightly, even for a split second, is better than living a dull-grey life for eternity.”

“You have to take the path you have to take.”

 ”Tears of Sadness… Tears of Joy… They’re far from the same.”

 ”Even without clocks, the sun will still rise.” 

  ”Stop making me repeat myself! Its bad for my health!” 

 ”Man fears the darkness, and so he scrapes away at the edges of it with fire.” 
 ”Don’t talk, it makes you sound stupid.”

Blank…

No thoughts…no memories.  No remorse…no regret.
Can I become selfish?…Just this once…please..